I’m currently eating chia seed pudding with a slew of mixed berries (strawberries, raspberries, blackberries and blueberries to be exact). I omitted the peanut butter this time. Yesterday I wrote with sadness and was feeling so defeated in life. Wah. Fortunately I’m in much better spirits today. Isn’t it interesting how quickly our emotions can change? Ah, change: the only constant in life. We’re such moody creatures. A huge reason why I am feeling much better today is caused by something so minuscule: my attempt at getting organized.
Overall, I’d like to think I do have my shit together in life, but the way I handle things is more of an organized chaos. I always do things last minute, it’s just my nature. But at the same time I always know that no matter how messy things may appear, it’s never too out of control. I somehow manage to pull it all together at the final hour. For super Type As, I’m sure this way of living sounds like a fiasco, but it works for me. I don’t know if I like the rush of doing things last minute, or if I just feel more motivated by having no option but to do it now. I think it’s the ladder. Today though, I decided to get organized. The reason I was so down in the dumps yesterday is because I was letting things out of my control ruin my attitude. I so badly wanted the power to control the situation that fell upon me, but I just couldn’t. It is past that point and I just have to deal with picking up the pieces, whatever that turns out to look like.
In an effort to feel more clear headed and on track, I decided to control the things I can, instead of worrying about the things I can’t. It all started this morning when I wrote down a simple list of things I have to do in the next week. Usually any lists I make are mental in my head and I complete things when I feel like it, typically up until the minute they need to get done (this is my organized chaos). But today I realized how empowering it is to write out what needs to get done. You are taking control of what you can and it’s very oddly settling. I now know why super organized people are the way they are. Kudos to you guys. I felt more and more at ease with each thing I was able to cross off this list. The list includes: work I have to complete, chores that need to get done, calls I have to make, things I have to buy, appointments that need to be scheduled etc. The small act of writing out the list and taking action on each task immediately brought me into the feeling of being in control and being on track. Every time my pen crossed something out it felt like a step towards a brighter future. Am I crazy? Prob. It made me feel like those situations out of my control no longer matter since I am taking ownership of the parts of my life that I can. I’m living like a person who has their shit together, and a person who has their shit together wouldn’t let situations out of their control set them back. Perhaps this is just my wacko chaotic state of mind (most likely), but creating a list turned my entire state of being around today.
I realized taking action in the smallest form eases the mind. I know a lot of people create lists on the reg, so that bunch may be saying “How out of control is this girl to think a writing list changed her life?” I’ll forgive you if you said this. Living in organized chaos can only be handled by a special type of person. 😉 But at the end of the day, we can all learn from each other. So to all of those feeling like life is a bit of a mess, learn from me today: start with a list.